I’m back in Hannover since two weeks by now and there’s nothing to blog about. The construction work on my street moved from just in front of my house and that’s pretty much all news. I met up with some friends, tackled some stuff from the ToDo pile, finished the story line of GTA5 and that’s pretty much it. I guess Hannover didn’t change while I was gone. But I did. Where this will lead to we’ll see. I’ll keep you posted 🙂
Category Archives: thoughts & feelings
That pretty well sums it up…
Actually it’s changing between both pictures from time to time. I’ve almost finished “a feast for crows” and by coincidence found out that there’s another volume seeing it standing on Eva’s desk. I bought the the bundle of the first four (e)books and thought that’s it. Seems like I really suck at being a fanboy 🙂
Sometimes you win, sometimes you loose…
I'm not in the condition to fuck! -- KaLeu Philipp Thomsen
Me neither. Not even in the condition to find a decent quote or write something jolly. But at least I had a nice piece of ASS for breakfast. What I am trying to say with this weird wordplay? Probably not what you thought of. I was neither drunk yesterday nor did anything sexually happen.
I just caught a cold and I’m feeling miserable. Sore throat, plenty of snot, the usual. The night was cold, I slept about four hours and my breath is condensing while I’m writing this. Ten degrees in the morning sun and still about 1000km to the northern cape. What I’m I doing here? I could be in Spain or Portugal right now. Or in Hannover. The forecast says 31 degrees for Thursday in Hannover…
On the lucky side I don’t have a fever and the van warms up nicely if I turn on the heating. I guess the 11kg gas bottle will last until I reach Norway and then I’ve to see weather I can get it refilled there (tricky because of a different connections systems) or if I have to retrofit the gas system of the van while I’m running on the 5kg spare bottle.
I guess this is one of the times where you/I just have to push through. It’s no use heading for Germany yet because I would hate me for that and the summer over there is at an end too. I want to see the beauty of Lapland and stand on the northern cape. I don’t now why or what but something drags me there. There’s only one way to find out. But before that I have to wait until noon for Lidl and the sonera shop to open up to stock up on food and broadband traffic. Yep, shops are open on sundays in Finland as well.
Something’s wrong…
… and here I sit, on an almost perfect beach with a beautiful sunset sipping ice-cold german beer. Alone. Nobody wanted to join in on the trip because everybody is so occupied doing whatever. Some folks probably are, I won’t deny that. But I’ve got the feeling that for most people it’s just a barrier in their heads. This reminds me of one situation at work where I told some collegues that I’ll be traveling for a couple of months when my contract is over. Everybody was like “Oh, that sounds nice, I would really love to be able to do this as well but …”. I was totally amazed by one guy who told them that they are bonkers and that they could if they wanted to. He closed his motivational speech with “…but I don’t want to. Why should I travel the world if I can stay at home on my sofa and watch TV?”. Good question. I don’t know if his obesity issues were a reason but I guess that he is really just the kind of guy who likes to stay at home. I’m not.
And just for the record the sunset from the day before yesterday…
The sunset yesterday looked quite the same actually. Forgot my camera though…
Southern Finland
Location: Nuuksio National park, north of Helsinki Odo: approx. 284200
Helsinki was feeling wrong somehow. Not too bad of a city at all, some nice places, some nice folks, not as shiny as swedish cities, a place which just seems real. Almost familiar… Since I developed that certain “I think I’ll stay at home today and will not do anything but reading and drinking tea” mood I flew from the city to the Nuuksio National Park. Just a half hour drive of the city center lies the first inland place on this trip which seems to have some magic in it. It’s difficult to put in words but it feels good being here. My senses are pleased with beautiful nature and my head is spinning free.
Here it came to me. Helsinki has a little more that 600k inhabitants in the city and 1,3m in the metro area. Seems familiar indeed… It’s Hannover again! Or at least the size and the bits I saw. Another indicator for the wrongness I felt was stuff that S. told me. She’s quite interested in alternative living projects, especially eco villages. There are not too many in Finland and by coincidence she was just about to hop on a plane to germany to visit “Sieben Linden”, a quite large eco village just about 50km away from Hannover. So I came here to search for intentional communites and the locals go to my homeplace to find these. That was the second time somebody asked me why I’m coming here to search stuff which is just at my doorstep at home.
Today was also the first time where I started to have second thoughts in my travel plans. Almost a month into the trip I really miss partying with friends. Right now I would love to do just that. I know I would get sick of it soon and would wish to get going again fast. Probably I’m a little bit homesick. I really took it slowly so there’s no big WOW all the time which normally compensates for that. The trip is just nice. Lacks a little bit of partying actually but that’s more or less my own fault since I missed most opportunities on purpose.
So I’m feeling a little lonely and I’m about to drive into the wilderness where there are no people to meet online and few to meet in real life. Sounds wrong somehow. Since it seems that none of my friends will join in on the trip for some time I’ll probably spend some time just with myself. Maybe that’s just the right thing to do. I still have no clue what I want to change in my life. And judging by experience I won’t find that clue partying or hanging out at home.
It’s about 1500km to Hammerfest and another 2800km from there back to Hannover. For travelling in Germany this seems like a really long distance. I guess I just give it a shot. If it’s too boring I’ll to switch to “Australia Mode” where this would be a short trip to the outback. Maybe I’ll even find decent company on the way… I should get the soundsystem going and gather some audio books anyways…
(posted a couple of days after writing, feeling more content about travelling on now…)